For those of you who know me well, you know I hate change. I don't deal well with it in any capacity. I don't like new ways of doing things, I don't like being taken from my comfort zone. Ever!
That being said....change is inevitable. I'm realizing that in order to truly embrace the life I want, a part of me is going to have to die and be reborn. Sounds morbid maybe, but it's true.
I am currently obsessed w/ Criminal Minds (an American TV show about FBI Behavioral Profilers. They catch criminals, they're super smart and sometimes sexy too*!) - and the opening quote in an episode I watched the other night was:
"All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves. We must die to one life before we can enter another." -- Anatole France
*The "sexy" part of Criminal Minds is Shemar Moore. Mmmm!
Anyways, that quote really struck a note deep inside me. I really have to let go of my old life, and my old habits in order to become a new person. This has proven to be easier said than done...
I have the eating portion of my new life pretty much down. I'm at 1700 calories a day - lots of protein - limited sugar and alcohol. Infact, I'm trying to go until Valentine's Day before I have another alcoholic beverage. We'll see if I can be martini-free that long!
I'm doing well with the gym. Making it there at least once a day, but planning to aim for twice a day (cardio in the AM and weights in the PM or vice versa). I'm also setting up gym dates w/ Rach so we can start preparing for our 5K.
I'm taking steps in the right direction... it just seems a little sad to know I will never be the person I was before. She wasn't bad, she just made poor choices. Lots of poor choices.
One thing that makes me really happy is that I don't have to severe any ties w/ friends. I worried that maybe people in my life wouldn't be willing to support me in the venture. I was wrong, I've gotten so much support it's just outstanding! Even the guys I work with have been really great about letting me vent/reveal in new discoveries. :-)
So, the new mantra is to embrace change...it might be scary, but the outcome will be beautiful!
Love,
*S
1 comment:
your quote for the day,
"Bad habits and compulsions cannot be conquered by determined resolutions or promising ourselves that we won't go on doing this or that. They cannot be rooted out -- for what would fill that vacuum? They must be replaced - with their opposites. The secret is to substitute the positive for the negative - the I will for the I won't."
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