But I FEEL So Much Thinner!

Dual blog post tonight. We're chatting about how our weekly progress pix (which are not yet public) just don't match how we FEEL on the inside.

Physically D feels like he could take on Mike Tyson in his prime, and whoop his ass. Me? I feel like I should be strutting down the runway at Fashion Week.

However, we're so not even close.

We've been working out for 1 month, and previously just dieting for 1 month. So, 8 weeks in - we feel like super humans. I suppose this is normal. When you go from doing absolutely nothing, to working out 6 days a week....your bound to feel amazing.

That being said, it's bittersweet. All I can focus on is the millions of workouts, and lifetime of eating healthier that stand before me. What I'm not taking into account is how drastically we've both changed our lives in this short time.

8 weeks is not a long time. In that time we've lost 65 pounds combined - and gained 15 pounds of muscle. That's awesome!

Yet, I am left feeling wholly unsatisfied. I want more. I want knee-high boots. I want skinnier jeans. I want VISIBLE progress, dammit.

D wants basketball jerseys and tank tops and 42" jeans. We're just not there yet. But, we are in this for the long haul. No one said it would be easy. However, we know it will be worth it.

One of D's good friends asked how he'll fair during the holidays. D's response cracked me up: "Dude, I don't need a special day to have a battle with food. Every MF-ing day is a battle with food".

He's right.

This weekend alone we narrowly avoided a 2,000 calorie brunch, pastries from our favorite bakery and fudge. Delicious, chocolately fudge. We both resisted all temptations - but it wasn't easy.

It just seems that at this point, having a "little bit" is like saying to a drug addict that they could have just a "little" heroin. A little is how we got to where we are right now. Let's face it, we all know "a little" is never truly a little.

On the gym front D is doing 500 ab crunches a day. Yes, you read that correctly. My brother, the one who used to eat 4,000 calories a day is doing FIVE HUNDRED ab crunches a day.

Me? I'm only up to 130 crunches. However, I'm able to do much longer bouts of cardio (20 mins on the bike, followed by 15 on the tread!). Yay!

One thing we've both noticed is the way people doubt our ability to even function at the gym. As soon as they see D getting off a machine, at least 1 person will run over and see what his weight was set to. Moreover, if they are in a close enough proximity, I have actually caught people counting my reps. Really?! Your life is that sad that you need to count how many leg presses I can do, then see if you can top me? Fail.

This week will be challenging for S* -- several different friends are in town and she's working a weird shift nearly every day. This means planning will be essential. Meals, gym times, sleep...everything needs to stay on schedule in order for this to work. This is scary....this is not her perfect, little controlled environment. Stay tuned.

XO!
Us

PS -- I love today's picture. We're not just interested in this, we're committed.