.....is harder than it sounds.
D is sleeping, but I just had to post. I warned you all that I talked more!
This week has been hellish. Work drama, car drama, money drama....and to boot, my period. Yay!
Typically I would be mowing on candy/cupcakes/anything sweet every night....and sleeping 10-14 hrs a day because I was so worn out.
Not this time.
I have stuck to my diet 100% - added some more calcium and lots of extra water...and getting my regular sleep (5-6 hrs a night). Oh, and exercising.
I feel fantastic! Who knew that exercising helped so much!!??!?! It's bizarre to me.
However, conquering these bad habits is HARD. So hard! I was a raving bitch all day at work yesterday....I feel bad for the boys in my group. I wanted chocolate SO BAD - but I knew one bite would lead to 12...and soon I'd be off the diet, wallowing in self-pity and staying fat.
I don't want that.
I'm stuck in the strangest place. I know where I am, I know where I want to be....but right now I'm in limbo between both.
I feel like one wrong move and BOOM - I will spiral out of control. *sigh*
It's a very tight rope. Let's hope I can stay on it. Because really, I'm still to close to call -- I could revert back to the old me at any point. I need to stay strong...no matter how tough it is.
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A few small victories for this week (let's focus on the half-full glass!) --
I got a haircut, and noticed I have cheekbones again. Yay!
I got hit on TWICE (both by guys that ain't my type...but it still felt nice).
I saw a friend from work who travels a lot - and she said "OMG you look great! What have you been doing?"
So, other people seeing visible progress = AMAZING! Wooo!
Off to bed... tomorrow, a dual post.
XO
*S
1 comment:
changing behavior is a three-step process:
awareness-acceptance-action. you've got the aware and action...but jumping over the acceptance is very easy - and it takes a lot longer to work through the acceptance.
one day at a time, and clearly you both are doing great. we are both very happy for you.
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