D and I are talking tonight about how we were versus how we ARE versus how we will be. It's such an interesting topic for discussion.
D first:
I used to be the kid who gave himself excuses to not do anything. In fact - the old me would be on Deal or No Deal...5 steps from the million dollars suitcase and say 'nah...5 steps is too many. I'm good. Thanks'.
Now, I'll do 5 steps...maybe an extra 5...hell even 50. Now I'll do 300 crunches, not the 20 Brian expects me to do. I see your expectation level, and I fucking exceed it. Every time.
Sound weird? Encouragement + tough love = results. Let's not bullshit anymore. Shut up and just do it.
So, Past Derek was lazy and unmotivated. Up until 2 months ago I had all but given up the will to live. Things seems completely insurmountable, and impossible.
Current Derek shits in the face of danger. Literally. He knows what he wants, he knows how to get there and he will pummel you if you get in his way. Doubt him? He'll prove you wrong twice.
He's pretty much a modern day Chuck Norris.
How will Future Derek be? I can only speculate that my future self will be as amazing as my current self....times infinity plus one. Oh, and with a hot body too.
For instance, in high school a lot of teachers had no faith in my ability to go to college and excel. In fact, many would not write me recommendation letters. Not only did I go to college, but I finished a Bachelor's degree in 3 years - not 4 and I came out of the experience a much better person.
I am someone who likes to be told he can't do something - I like a challenge.
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*S
The Old Samantha was a person who's life was run by the whim of the people around her. Ouch! D said this and I shuddered. But, it's true. My life was dictated by the unhealthy attitudes of the social circles I maintained. Going for drinks? Everyone else is doing it! Eating dessert even though I'm stuffed? Why not?
I was a sad person.
Current *Samantha has a smaller, healthier social circle. No dead weight here. Everyone who is in my life (and reading this blog) is special to me....and has earned their place here for loving me for me. As an aside, Current *S also has a smaller, healthier waist too. ;)
Future *Samantha will be the girl that everyone wants to be. She won't doubt herself before she says something....she won't constantly compare herself to every woman in a room and she will never walk away from something because it seems too hard. She will also look seriously hot.
A lot of my recent self-discovery surrounds my relationships. The guys in my past were always equally as troubled as me - just in different ways. Going forward my goal is to find someone who might have baggage - but it's equal. No more overcompensation...no more pretending...and no more settling for shit when I deserve so much better. In the end, no more settling period.
I can't tell you how many times Past *S has settled...or better yet, talked herself out of something (or someone) that had fantastic potential just because she lacked self-worth. From here on out, no regrets.
Love,
US!
D first:
I used to be the kid who gave himself excuses to not do anything. In fact - the old me would be on Deal or No Deal...5 steps from the million dollars suitcase and say 'nah...5 steps is too many. I'm good. Thanks'.
Now, I'll do 5 steps...maybe an extra 5...hell even 50. Now I'll do 300 crunches, not the 20 Brian expects me to do. I see your expectation level, and I fucking exceed it. Every time.
Sound weird? Encouragement + tough love = results. Let's not bullshit anymore. Shut up and just do it.
So, Past Derek was lazy and unmotivated. Up until 2 months ago I had all but given up the will to live. Things seems completely insurmountable, and impossible.
Current Derek shits in the face of danger. Literally. He knows what he wants, he knows how to get there and he will pummel you if you get in his way. Doubt him? He'll prove you wrong twice.
He's pretty much a modern day Chuck Norris.
How will Future Derek be? I can only speculate that my future self will be as amazing as my current self....times infinity plus one. Oh, and with a hot body too.
For instance, in high school a lot of teachers had no faith in my ability to go to college and excel. In fact, many would not write me recommendation letters. Not only did I go to college, but I finished a Bachelor's degree in 3 years - not 4 and I came out of the experience a much better person.
I am someone who likes to be told he can't do something - I like a challenge.
----
*S
The Old Samantha was a person who's life was run by the whim of the people around her. Ouch! D said this and I shuddered. But, it's true. My life was dictated by the unhealthy attitudes of the social circles I maintained. Going for drinks? Everyone else is doing it! Eating dessert even though I'm stuffed? Why not?
I was a sad person.
Current *Samantha has a smaller, healthier social circle. No dead weight here. Everyone who is in my life (and reading this blog) is special to me....and has earned their place here for loving me for me. As an aside, Current *S also has a smaller, healthier waist too. ;)
Future *Samantha will be the girl that everyone wants to be. She won't doubt herself before she says something....she won't constantly compare herself to every woman in a room and she will never walk away from something because it seems too hard. She will also look seriously hot.
A lot of my recent self-discovery surrounds my relationships. The guys in my past were always equally as troubled as me - just in different ways. Going forward my goal is to find someone who might have baggage - but it's equal. No more overcompensation...no more pretending...and no more settling for shit when I deserve so much better. In the end, no more settling period.
I can't tell you how many times Past *S has settled...or better yet, talked herself out of something (or someone) that had fantastic potential just because she lacked self-worth. From here on out, no regrets.
Love,
US!
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